Saturday, December 12, 2009
Take a listen
This is one of the soundtracks of the now-showing movie Love Happens called Dream by Priscilla Ahn.
This is its official video. Take a listen (: it's very nice in my very own humble opinion.
Sunday, November 8, 2009
The New Guitar || The New Book
OK for the sake of UPDATING my blog, this will be a short one.
Got my very first electric acoustic guitar recently. It's the Norman's Encore series B20!
Comes with the Fishman Classic 4T Pickup, which is nice!
The guitar is handmade in Canada =D
Already used it for the performance for the past 2 days, the output is quite warm though.
Oh yea, those who were 'FETCHING' my baby when I went to pick it up at Daniel's place are: my dad (2 days earlier), Wen Xuan, Zoe and Joseph! xD
Got my very first electric acoustic guitar recently. It's the Norman's Encore series B20!
Comes with the Fishman Classic 4T Pickup, which is nice!
The guitar is handmade in Canada =D
Already used it for the performance for the past 2 days, the output is quite warm though.
Oh yea, those who were 'FETCHING' my baby when I went to pick it up at Daniel's place are: my dad (2 days earlier), Wen Xuan, Zoe and Joseph! xD
and lets not forget, the new book to read after the final exam...
Audrey Niffenegger's
THE TIME TRAVELER'S WIFE
The book caught my eye when I first saw it, even before the movie is showing in cinema!
Watched the movie with Jerwin, Wen Xuan and Zoe.
Here's my thought about the movie, which I've posted in Facebook few days ago:
Oh and one more thing, when I told wifey Jill that I almost cried, the following conversation occured:
JILL : I wonder if they have The Guitarist's Wife
BOWIE : Uh, oh yea, The Environmentalist's Wife sounds good too.
JILL : Environmentalist? True true... because guitar is made of woods!
BOWIE : HUH!?
JILL : Nothing...! Supper hubby... supper!
(showing tongue)
Jill... that was randomly random!
Anyways...
That's all for now.
Au revoir.
Cheerio.
Audrey Niffenegger's
THE TIME TRAVELER'S WIFE
The book caught my eye when I first saw it, even before the movie is showing in cinema!
Watched the movie with Jerwin, Wen Xuan and Zoe.
Here's my thought about the movie, which I've posted in Facebook few days ago:
It's about life long metaphors, of great romance, not the science. It shows the reality of a relationship between two individuals who have to deal with the negative effects of time travel in a close relationship. For what is meant to be there's nothing that we could possibly do to change it even if you are able to travel back in time. Touching, heartbreaking, ♥ it!
Seriously, I think everyone should watch it. I almost cried but I didn't let it all out though.Oh and one more thing, when I told wifey Jill that I almost cried, the following conversation occured:
JILL : I wonder if they have The Guitarist's Wife
BOWIE : Uh, oh yea, The Environmentalist's Wife sounds good too.
JILL : Environmentalist? True true... because guitar is made of woods!
BOWIE : HUH!?
JILL : Nothing...! Supper hubby... supper!
(showing tongue)
Jill... that was randomly random!
Anyways...
That's all for now.
Au revoir.
Cheerio.
p/s: CJ cried after watching The Time Traveler's Wife!
Sunday, October 25, 2009
What my ear is waiting for ...
While revising for the final exams... I scrolled through Ali's blog and I found something 'ear-blasting', my ears are 'hunger' for something...
The Runner-up of the eight season of American Idol, Adam Lambert and the 17 years old Allison Iraheta, who made it to Top 4 in the 8th A.I., both of them are revealing their first major album release!
Yes, both of them earned standing ovation from everyone including their mentors the judges! As expected for their mind and ear-blasting great vocals!!!
Allison Iraheta & Adam Lambert Album Titles Revealed!
A rep for 19 Entertainment confirmed to MTV News that Adam Lambert's major label debut is called For Your Entertainment and Allison Iraheta's release is named Just Like You.
Adam Lambert - For Your Entertainment (November 23rd!)
Allison Iraheta - Just Like You (December 1st!)
As a big fan of those who made it to the top seats in the 8th season American Idol, I'm so gonna buy these =D
Well! Something nice for my ears right after the final exam =D !!
In the mean time, lets stick with the notes shall we...
The Runner-up of the eight season of American Idol, Adam Lambert and the 17 years old Allison Iraheta, who made it to Top 4 in the 8th A.I., both of them are revealing their first major album release!
Yes, both of them earned standing ovation from everyone including their mentors the judges! As expected for their mind and ear-blasting great vocals!!!
Allison Iraheta & Adam Lambert Album Titles Revealed!
A rep for 19 Entertainment confirmed to MTV News that Adam Lambert's major label debut is called For Your Entertainment and Allison Iraheta's release is named Just Like You.
Adam Lambert - For Your Entertainment (November 23rd!)
Allison Iraheta - Just Like You (December 1st!)
As a big fan of those who made it to the top seats in the 8th season American Idol, I'm so gonna buy these =D
Well! Something nice for my ears right after the final exam =D !!
In the mean time, lets stick with the notes shall we...
Saturday, October 24, 2009
A Walk to Remember
I told her :" This could be something beautiful."
She agreed. Both of us are not ready to commit, but, we are ready to walk.
This is something more than flirting but less than a commitment.
We believe in good, we believe in the bright side of the outcome.
Most of all, we believe in each other. From there, we are building up our commitments <3
We've known each other for quite sometime. We clicked with each other so well. We know what's beneath each others' mind. We are somehow synced =) But no, we weren't falling for each other. We are the sweet escapes for each other when we shut ourselves down from the outside world. We are the listeners and advisers for each other for our problems including our relationships'.
We are standing at a point where we are so comfortable being with each other without committing anything.
I guess that's because there's no strings attached.
We are not looking for new ways to define the means of being a couple.
What matters the most is what defines the word TOGETHER.
It takes TWO to form a TOGETHER.
When it's TOGETHER, you're not an island anymore.
Lowering the sound of silence that erupts from being a lonely square root of three.
Now that we are in a good start, I've proposed the WALK. She yes-ed to that.
The path ahead of us may be bumpy, but we'll see where it goes from here.
We are ready for this ride.
So, Jill, take my hand =)
Let's walk.
p/s: I don't expect everyone to comprehend what I'm saying, but, we are committed to walk, and to make sure things will ONLY be BETTER in time.
She agreed. Both of us are not ready to commit, but, we are ready to walk.
This is something more than flirting but less than a commitment.
We believe in good, we believe in the bright side of the outcome.
Most of all, we believe in each other. From there, we are building up our commitments <3
We've known each other for quite sometime. We clicked with each other so well. We know what's beneath each others' mind. We are somehow synced =) But no, we weren't falling for each other. We are the sweet escapes for each other when we shut ourselves down from the outside world. We are the listeners and advisers for each other for our problems including our relationships'.
We are standing at a point where we are so comfortable being with each other without committing anything.
I guess that's because there's no strings attached.
We are not looking for new ways to define the means of being a couple.
What matters the most is what defines the word TOGETHER.
It takes TWO to form a TOGETHER.
When it's TOGETHER, you're not an island anymore.
Lowering the sound of silence that erupts from being a lonely square root of three.
Now that we are in a good start, I've proposed the WALK. She yes-ed to that.
The path ahead of us may be bumpy, but we'll see where it goes from here.
We are ready for this ride.
So, Jill, take my hand =)
Let's walk.
p/s: I don't expect everyone to comprehend what I'm saying, but, we are committed to walk, and to make sure things will ONLY be BETTER in time.
Friday, October 23, 2009
有些话你选择不对他说
你说某种脆弱 我才感同身受
我永远都愿意当个听众 安慰你的痛
保护着你从始至终
就算你的爱 属于他了
就算你的手 他还牵着
就算你累了 我会在这
一人留 两人疚 三人游
悄悄的 远远的 或许舍不得
默默地 静静地 或许很值得
我还在某处守候着
说不定这也是一种幸福的资格
至少我们中还有人能快乐
这样就已足够了
有些话我选择保持沉默
别把实话说破 隐藏我的寂寞
你的情绪依然把我牵动
躲在你心中 角落的心事我能懂
就算你的爱 属于他了
就算你的手 他还牵着
就算你累了 我会在这
一人留 两人疚 三人游
悄悄的 远远的 或许舍不得
默默地 静静地 或许很值得
我还在某处守候着
说不定这也是一种幸福的资格
至少我们中还有人能快乐
这样就已足够了
不知道 不知道 不知道
为什么 为什么 我的爱
我的怀抱留不住你的离开
却总在等待着你回来
一人留 两人疚 三人游
悄悄的 远远的 或许舍不得
默默地 静静地 或许很值得
我还在某处守候着
说不定这也是一种得不到的 却美好的
至少我们中还有人能快乐
这样就已足够了
至少我们中还有人能快乐
这样就已经够了
你说某种脆弱 我才感同身受
我永远都愿意当个听众 安慰你的痛
保护着你从始至终
就算你的爱 属于他了
就算你的手 他还牵着
就算你累了 我会在这
一人留 两人疚 三人游
悄悄的 远远的 或许舍不得
默默地 静静地 或许很值得
我还在某处守候着
说不定这也是一种幸福的资格
至少我们中还有人能快乐
这样就已足够了
有些话我选择保持沉默
别把实话说破 隐藏我的寂寞
你的情绪依然把我牵动
躲在你心中 角落的心事我能懂
就算你的爱 属于他了
就算你的手 他还牵着
就算你累了 我会在这
一人留 两人疚 三人游
悄悄的 远远的 或许舍不得
默默地 静静地 或许很值得
我还在某处守候着
说不定这也是一种幸福的资格
至少我们中还有人能快乐
这样就已足够了
不知道 不知道 不知道
为什么 为什么 我的爱
我的怀抱留不住你的离开
却总在等待着你回来
一人留 两人疚 三人游
悄悄的 远远的 或许舍不得
默默地 静静地 或许很值得
我还在某处守候着
说不定这也是一种得不到的 却美好的
至少我们中还有人能快乐
这样就已足够了
至少我们中还有人能快乐
这样就已经够了
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
It's All Said and Done
It's all said and done,
she made it very clear that she's holding on to the relationship,
and I, too, supported her decision.
It took the whole of me, to actually support her decision, telling her to hold on to the relationship, regardless of all the hardship, assure her that she could take all the hardship, and that both of them will see the light some day. I have to admit that it was seriously hard for me to came out with the words, it's part of the letting-go process? I just want to see her happy and comfortable with where she stands now. I hope she knows that (: However, I need time... to fix the arrow of my thoughts. Where do I head from here, what do I do now, what is my mindset for now, and stuffs.
Well, it never would've worked out right.
Alright, Bowie, let's move on...
*end*
she made it very clear that she's holding on to the relationship,
and I, too, supported her decision.
It took the whole of me, to actually support her decision, telling her to hold on to the relationship, regardless of all the hardship, assure her that she could take all the hardship, and that both of them will see the light some day. I have to admit that it was seriously hard for me to came out with the words, it's part of the letting-go process? I just want to see her happy and comfortable with where she stands now. I hope she knows that (: However, I need time... to fix the arrow of my thoughts. Where do I head from here, what do I do now, what is my mindset for now, and stuffs.
Well, it never would've worked out right.
Alright, Bowie, let's move on...
*end*
Monday, October 5, 2009
Another Heart's Call
HE,
threw the whole world behind when HE first saw her EYES.
HE,
wonders where does the funny feeling came from.
HE,
was thinking : 'Hey you know, this could be something...'
HE,
tried to hint HER about his feelings on a few attempts, but maybe it's just too shallow for HER to notice.
HE,
enjoyed the moment when both of them were together, even though when they were just nothing more than friends.
HE,
finally fell for her.
HE,
found out that SHE's actually attached right after HE fell for HER.
HE,
got her guessing about the feelings that HE feels towards her.
SHE,
got HIM filling with doubts while all HE wanted to do is just a confession.
HE,
knows that HE should do something to clear the doubts and confusions that SHE has.
SHE,
was waiting for that, but now, HE isn't sure about that anymore.
HE,
seems to know the answer already, even though no actions are taken.
HE,
finds himself drowning in it.
HE,
is letting go, very slowly, because there are just too many things to worry about other than that.
HE,
decided to keep the feelings untold, directly, towards HER.
HE,
is in shattered pieces, but managed to go on with all HIS stuffs.
THOUGHTS READ UNSPOKEN,
FOREVER IN DOUBT,
PIECES OF MEMORIES,
FALL TO THE GROUND.
threw the whole world behind when HE first saw her EYES.
HE,
wonders where does the funny feeling came from.
HE,
was thinking : 'Hey you know, this could be something...'
HE,
tried to hint HER about his feelings on a few attempts, but maybe it's just too shallow for HER to notice.
HE,
enjoyed the moment when both of them were together, even though when they were just nothing more than friends.
HE,
finally fell for her.
HE,
found out that SHE's actually attached right after HE fell for HER.
HE,
got her guessing about the feelings that HE feels towards her.
SHE,
got HIM filling with doubts while all HE wanted to do is just a confession.
HE,
knows that HE should do something to clear the doubts and confusions that SHE has.
SHE,
was waiting for that, but now, HE isn't sure about that anymore.
HE,
seems to know the answer already, even though no actions are taken.
HE,
finds himself drowning in it.
HE,
is letting go, very slowly, because there are just too many things to worry about other than that.
HE,
decided to keep the feelings untold, directly, towards HER.
HE,
is in shattered pieces, but managed to go on with all HIS stuffs.
THOUGHTS READ UNSPOKEN,
FOREVER IN DOUBT,
PIECES OF MEMORIES,
FALL TO THE GROUND.
Sunday, October 4, 2009
Random
好怀念的麻辣板面
真的好怀念～
瓦煲老鼠粉！
Sony Wearable Walkman - cordless saves the day!
My new lappie backpack ;)
Kelly Clarkson saves the day...This is a random post, I miss the food, new stuffs that I bought and the as-usual tight schedule...
and it is as short as it can be.
what do you think?
and it is as short as it can be.
what do you think?
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Sunday, September 27, 2009
宿舍，好久不见哟。
现在的心情告诉我：用中文来写部落格吧。嗯 ！一天里面贴了两个post，没问题吧。
其实身边有很多人都一直误会我能掌握的语言。大多数都认为我不会中文，或者认为我只会说，不会读/写中文。可能自己太习惯使用英文了吧。其实最近发现，自己的中文发音和词汇运用和句子构造都很有问题，有没有办法弥补呢。会说英文是好事，但不可以忽略中文呐。而且为了驻唱需求，自己也要努力的学多些中文歌曲，更是要把自己的咬词练好。语言...
Anyways...
正当我在盼望着那一星期的假期将会是永远的时候，假期结束了，我也回到宿舍了。明天又要继续播放着我们的Monday Blues了。10am有一份功课要交，接下来是11am~1pm, 2pm~3pm“蓝调”。希望可以‘播’得顺利些吧。
相信大家都的心情都处于holiday mood吧。
是时候回过神来了啊啊啊啊啊啊啊。
一小时前刚从家里出发回到槟岛，途中顺便在巴士站载了Zoe和Sue Ann。看到Zoe，又想起了上个星期日在巴生吃的肉骨茶干，好怀念的说，真的很好吃。Final考完之后我还会再下KL一趟。肉骨茶干，我来也～好怀念的麻辣板面，好怀念的瓦煲老鼠粉，12月再会！
对了，中秋节快到了，这几天里面应该要去买些中秋supply了 -- 月饼！对啊，我还没买。最近看到电视广告的麦可思月饼，看起来很不错，大家有没有意见呢？
好了，我要继续温习了，就此搁笔。
心声：最近都在徘徊着：继续守候，还是Let Go。我不懂。
I just hope that you would open up yourself and let your guard down for me.
-Bowie-
其实身边有很多人都一直误会我能掌握的语言。大多数都认为我不会中文，或者认为我只会说，不会读/写中文。可能自己太习惯使用英文了吧。其实最近发现，自己的中文发音和词汇运用和句子构造都很有问题，有没有办法弥补呢。会说英文是好事，但不可以忽略中文呐。而且为了驻唱需求，自己也要努力的学多些中文歌曲，更是要把自己的咬词练好。语言...
Anyways...
正当我在盼望着那一星期的假期将会是永远的时候，假期结束了，我也回到宿舍了。明天又要继续播放着我们的Monday Blues了。10am有一份功课要交，接下来是11am~1pm, 2pm~3pm“蓝调”。希望可以‘播’得顺利些吧。
相信大家都的心情都处于holiday mood吧。
是时候回过神来了啊啊啊啊啊啊啊。
一小时前刚从家里出发回到槟岛，途中顺便在巴士站载了Zoe和Sue Ann。看到Zoe，又想起了上个星期日在巴生吃的肉骨茶干，好怀念的说，真的很好吃。Final考完之后我还会再下KL一趟。肉骨茶干，我来也～好怀念的麻辣板面，好怀念的瓦煲老鼠粉，12月再会！
对了，中秋节快到了，这几天里面应该要去买些中秋supply了 -- 月饼！对啊，我还没买。最近看到电视广告的麦可思月饼，看起来很不错，大家有没有意见呢？
好了，我要继续温习了，就此搁笔。
心声：最近都在徘徊着：继续守候，还是Let Go。我不懂。
I just hope that you would open up yourself and let your guard down for me.
-Bowie-
Thanks Aquila ;) || Universtiy Reopens...
Thanks to Apelles, he recommended me to her sister Aquila, she's the runner-up for this year's Astro Star Championship competition, it's different from the Astro Star Quest. Participants are in a form of bands, and present their self-composed songs based on the theme and criteria given. For your curiosity's sake (if there's any), you may watch her through HERE, HERE, and HERE, all the videos throughout the competition is available on YouTube.
Back to the main thing, I went to the audition on Friday at Aquila's music studio, Fine Arts Music Studio. Sang a few songs, and for what its worth, I got through it! And without a fuss, I got the 1st job after like almost 10 months straight away on the next day, which was yesterday, Saturday. It was a school reunion held by CLHS (Chung Ling), the '69~'67 batch, held at Penang Club. Also, it was the first time for me to sing with Abel, she's one of the singer of the studio as well, nice'n sweet vocal she has! And a Malay guy with the name Bob, and boy that guy somehow duplicated Rod Steward's vocal! About the whereabouts of which cafe/pub/lounge/etc. that I'll be singing at, I will have to work that out with Aquila since I'm still a freshman in her studio.
Anyhow, thanks a trillion to her for granting me the opportunity ;)
Holiday is ending, university is reopening... Here comes the avalanche of tight schedules + assignments + quiz + tests + lectures + replacement classes etc. etc. etc. etc.
The Story of My Life (duh)
oh and... by the way, can somebody remind me that I have to go and get a haircut?
please? I mean, seriously.
Over and out.
Bowieeeeee
Back to the main thing, I went to the audition on Friday at Aquila's music studio, Fine Arts Music Studio. Sang a few songs, and for what its worth, I got through it! And without a fuss, I got the 1st job after like almost 10 months straight away on the next day, which was yesterday, Saturday. It was a school reunion held by CLHS (Chung Ling), the '69~'67 batch, held at Penang Club. Also, it was the first time for me to sing with Abel, she's one of the singer of the studio as well, nice'n sweet vocal she has! And a Malay guy with the name Bob, and boy that guy somehow duplicated Rod Steward's vocal! About the whereabouts of which cafe/pub/lounge/etc. that I'll be singing at, I will have to work that out with Aquila since I'm still a freshman in her studio.
Anyhow, thanks a trillion to her for granting me the opportunity ;)
Holiday is ending, university is reopening... Here comes the avalanche of tight schedules + assignments + quiz + tests + lectures + replacement classes etc. etc. etc. etc.
The Story of My Life (duh)
oh and... by the way, can somebody remind me that I have to go and get a haircut?
please? I mean, seriously.
Over and out.
Bowieeeeee
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Random
Went to USM Wanderer's and did some rehearsal on the song written by Patrick. It so happens that it's Eric's birthday, got to know it when the others surprised her with birthday cake. Happy Birthday! =)
I have to say, there are a lot of September babies in USM isn't it!
Went back to hostel after the practice. Auntie that sells nasi lemak in the cafe called me and reminded me of the chocolate bar that April asked her to keep in the fridge. She did say something about closing the cafe tomorrow, I guess she's balik kampung tomorrow? Anyways here it is...
Am listening to Falling Slowly - Kris Allen's American Idol studio version.
Finishing my reports, pass it up, end of story.
Good night people.
I have to say, there are a lot of September babies in USM isn't it!
Went back to hostel after the practice. Auntie that sells nasi lemak in the cafe called me and reminded me of the chocolate bar that April asked her to keep in the fridge. She did say something about closing the cafe tomorrow, I guess she's balik kampung tomorrow? Anyways here it is...
April, you left your choc in cafe auntie's fridge!
It's with me now tho.
It's with me now tho.
Am listening to Falling Slowly - Kris Allen's American Idol studio version.
Finishing my reports, pass it up, end of story.
Good night people.
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Happy Birthday <3 belated Wifey
Woke up from a few hours of sleep at this hour again... battling against my IEK101 and IEG101, and, it's HER birthday today. I have to finish up this post... Math class in the morning... 1 hour of lecture -- highly unlikely for me to attend.
Happy Happy Birthday to my belated wifey, Cheryl ;)
It's her 22nd Birthday today! 16th of September!
Happy Happy Birthday to my belated wifey, Cheryl ;)
It's her 22nd Birthday today! 16th of September!
This time (day) last year, she still have class at that moment and staying at hostel, so she couldn't make it back to B'worth for celebration, we celebrated it the way she wanted it -- nice and simple. I took leave on that day, came to USM and took her out, leaving her busy study schedule behind for a lil' while. Went to TGI Friday at Queensbay Mall, ordered her favorite Sesame Jack Chicken Strips and the Friday's Three For All that consists of Loaded Potato Skins, Fried Mozzarella and Buffalo Wings. We enjoyed it so much. She kept telling me simple stuffs will do, but to me, there's no budgeting for such memorable moments ;) and I was working!
We talked, exchanging each others' topic of the week; her exam, her lab session, telling me her silly acts in class, complain to me about the hot sun while she walks to swimming pool and the noisy neighbor at her hostel, how she chatted with me in MSN by sitting near the staircase to get a better wireless reception, the unfinished porridge that she cooked in the afternoon, the stage-fright she gets during her presentation, the joy of finishing all her tutorials so she could come out and celebrate her birthday with me, etc.; I did the same and told her what I did for the week so far. We laughed so loud like nobody's business and like we owned the place of TGI Fridays, because it was a weekday, a Tuesday to be precise, not much customer(s) were there. Of course, the gift. In fact, that is what she asked and insisted me to give her, the gift is actually a mini diary with a blue cover, with a Treble on it. I wrote 100 things of both of us on the first few pages, just like she asked me to. She's going to write it for the rest of the week, then I'll be the one who writes for the following week, and the cycle goes on.
Silly wifey's silly suggestion ;) I love it.
After dining at TGI Friday's, we went to Batu Feringghi straight ;) yes it's a long way from QB to there! We went to SUNSET BISTRO, it's a place where you can enjoy watching the sunset (at the right time of course), a perfect environment with nice panoramic view, with some Reggae playing in the background, dimmed lights (or candle lights), a very nice environment for privacy... ;) and not to mention, romantic, totally. I'm not going into the details on how we spent our time there *ahem*. Use your imagination (if you are curious, duh).
11pm, and we are on our way back to her hostel, stayed at the gate for 10 minutes, kissed goodbye, texts and calls as usual, and good night.
I hope she's doing fine over THERE.
I love you;
For stepping into my life and always be the first to be there when I'm down;
For the first time, you got me thinking about our life, a house and kids which no one has ever made me think that far;
For letting your guard down so that I am noticeable by you and letting me step into your life;
For all the wake-up calls you made to make sure I'm not late for anything;
For the teas that you made for me to keep my vocal in good condition;
For giving me your everything;
For accepting my everything;
For being yourself when you're with me;
For accepting the real me;
For appreciating me;
For accepting all my silly acts when I was courting you so that I don't feel embarrassed;
For standing by my side even when I'm on the wrong one;
For everything we shared;
For all the joy we shared when meeting each others' parents;
For all the battles we fought together;
For all the crazy things we did together;
For all the hugs and kisses;
For all the best moments of my life;
For being the best thing in my life;
For being the only thing that makes sense when everything around me are not;
For being my Wifey =) u meant the world to me.
Irreplaceable and always, you will be.
This post is meant for your eyes.
I'm moving on, very slowly.
----
I'm not being emotional, I'm just being confessional.
--Bowie--
We talked, exchanging each others' topic of the week; her exam, her lab session, telling me her silly acts in class, complain to me about the hot sun while she walks to swimming pool and the noisy neighbor at her hostel, how she chatted with me in MSN by sitting near the staircase to get a better wireless reception, the unfinished porridge that she cooked in the afternoon, the stage-fright she gets during her presentation, the joy of finishing all her tutorials so she could come out and celebrate her birthday with me, etc.; I did the same and told her what I did for the week so far. We laughed so loud like nobody's business and like we owned the place of TGI Fridays, because it was a weekday, a Tuesday to be precise, not much customer(s) were there. Of course, the gift. In fact, that is what she asked and insisted me to give her, the gift is actually a mini diary with a blue cover, with a Treble on it. I wrote 100 things of both of us on the first few pages, just like she asked me to. She's going to write it for the rest of the week, then I'll be the one who writes for the following week, and the cycle goes on.
Silly wifey's silly suggestion ;) I love it.
After dining at TGI Friday's, we went to Batu Feringghi straight ;) yes it's a long way from QB to there! We went to SUNSET BISTRO, it's a place where you can enjoy watching the sunset (at the right time of course), a perfect environment with nice panoramic view, with some Reggae playing in the background, dimmed lights (or candle lights), a very nice environment for privacy... ;) and not to mention, romantic, totally. I'm not going into the details on how we spent our time there *ahem*. Use your imagination (if you are curious, duh).
11pm, and we are on our way back to her hostel, stayed at the gate for 10 minutes, kissed goodbye, texts and calls as usual, and good night.
I hope she's doing fine over THERE.
I love you;
For stepping into my life and always be the first to be there when I'm down;
For the first time, you got me thinking about our life, a house and kids which no one has ever made me think that far;
For letting your guard down so that I am noticeable by you and letting me step into your life;
For all the wake-up calls you made to make sure I'm not late for anything;
For the teas that you made for me to keep my vocal in good condition;
For giving me your everything;
For accepting my everything;
For being yourself when you're with me;
For accepting the real me;
For appreciating me;
For accepting all my silly acts when I was courting you so that I don't feel embarrassed;
For standing by my side even when I'm on the wrong one;
For everything we shared;
For all the joy we shared when meeting each others' parents;
For all the battles we fought together;
For all the crazy things we did together;
For all the hugs and kisses;
For all the best moments of my life;
For being the best thing in my life;
For being the only thing that makes sense when everything around me are not;
For being my Wifey =) u meant the world to me.
Irreplaceable and always, you will be.
This post is meant for your eyes.
I'm moving on, very slowly.
----
I'm not being emotional, I'm just being confessional.
--Bowie--
Final Exam in 1.5 months
Wide awake now and I can't get into sleep, slept for awhile in the afternoon so I guess I'll doze off in an hour from now. Have my exam schedule checked (above).My final exam schedule, temporary's though, is out. The subjects and the times are as shown in the photo. Wrote it down on the back of a Tesco receipt and nailed it on my notice board. My final exam starts off with the freakin' Bahasa Melayu, followed by Chemical Process Calculation, and then Mathematics, Ecology and Environmental Science. Begins on the 5th, ends on the 19th. By the way, 19th of November is Jacky's birthday. Jacky I'm gonna have to wish you happy birthday 7 hours later because you are at UK at that time being!!!
Although the exam schedule is only a draft for now, but I guess it is highly unlikely for them to reschedule everything if nothing outta the ordinary happens, yes, nothing outta the ordinary, say like an alien invasion. Ok *piak*. Crap.
You know what, I feel like writing another post.
Please hold.
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Monday, September 14, 2009
9 months later...
It's been 9 months since it happened.
And so happens if you were thinking what happened to me 9 months ago... It's available in one of my posts, right HERE.
16th September is her birthday.
22 years ago, her mother gave birth to her at a hospital in Raja Uda, Butterworth.
She's the 2nd child in the family after her elder brother. She's the only daughter.
She was brought up in a very healthy and complete family, loving parents and brother, she's a pampered child in the family, but yet she's got a positive manner and attitudes. She's a very independent girl.
Everything is ok throughout her schooling days. She went into matriculation college after her SPM. She managed to get herself into USM after that.
Right before that, she met a boy that later would became the guy who fell for her. That guy is me =) This is how we got to know each other : After SPM, I was selected for the 3 months National Service Program. I get to know her through the camp as well. The camp we went was called Gardenia Camp in Chang Loon, Kedah. That place is quite rural and urban. It's an abandoned resort, to be precise. She noticed me when I performed for the Night of Culture held in the camp, I was singing Blink 182's I miss You.
The conversation started by complimenting each other about the performances we did, yes she performed on the stage as well, cultural dance ;) we began to talk, until the moment when the night is over and everyone was shoo-ed to bed by the officers. We exchanged numbers and would text each other whenever we have no activities in hand and am staying in at the dorm. We began to see each other more and more frequently as time goes by. I realized I fell for her, and at the last day of the camp, I told her that I would go to her on the next day, she agreed.
She's staying somewhere that is not so far away from where I'm staying. At that moment, I knew that something is going on between us. I wasn't in control of myself, all I know was I confessed to her when I see her, just like that. She did the same, and that's how we got together ;) It was a day to remember, 8th of March '05. right after our SPM result was announced on the 7th.
We were very sweet, everything went on smoothly, she finished her studies in matriculation college and went into USM right after that. I did my diploma and decided to play around a little, found myself a job, worked as a part-time which later became full-time singer in Tao's. I planned to further up in the university, but at that time being, I wasn't really in the mood to drown myself in the books yet.
The days go on and on, until the heart-breaking news that killed the both of us...
A failed car-jacking attempt took her away from me.
Read it to find out more, the curiosity won't kill you in this case.
I have to admit, it's been 9 months, and I'm still learning how to accept it honestly.
I don't wanna run from it, I'm not avoiding it, I wanna face it, but it's almost like a mission impossible to me.
I think I got over it, but I didn't. Sometimes thinking of it again makes me fall apart.
I'm so used to having her around me that I'm feeling so empty sometimes, even though there are good buddies around me, yet the silence is so loud.
I have to admit that I fell for someone lately ;) I'm not taking her as a 'replacement', make no mistake about that. The feelings are true ;) But it's a rather slow process if you get what I mean.
She's not giving me some very positive signals I have to say, maybe more time is needed? and yet there are some complicated things that are going on on the other side.
I'm still learning...
I'm still empty...
I'm moving on...
=)
life is hard, and that is what makes life meaningful.
And so happens if you were thinking what happened to me 9 months ago... It's available in one of my posts, right HERE.
16th September is her birthday.
22 years ago, her mother gave birth to her at a hospital in Raja Uda, Butterworth.
She's the 2nd child in the family after her elder brother. She's the only daughter.
She was brought up in a very healthy and complete family, loving parents and brother, she's a pampered child in the family, but yet she's got a positive manner and attitudes. She's a very independent girl.
Everything is ok throughout her schooling days. She went into matriculation college after her SPM. She managed to get herself into USM after that.
Right before that, she met a boy that later would became the guy who fell for her. That guy is me =) This is how we got to know each other : After SPM, I was selected for the 3 months National Service Program. I get to know her through the camp as well. The camp we went was called Gardenia Camp in Chang Loon, Kedah. That place is quite rural and urban. It's an abandoned resort, to be precise. She noticed me when I performed for the Night of Culture held in the camp, I was singing Blink 182's I miss You.
The conversation started by complimenting each other about the performances we did, yes she performed on the stage as well, cultural dance ;) we began to talk, until the moment when the night is over and everyone was shoo-ed to bed by the officers. We exchanged numbers and would text each other whenever we have no activities in hand and am staying in at the dorm. We began to see each other more and more frequently as time goes by. I realized I fell for her, and at the last day of the camp, I told her that I would go to her on the next day, she agreed.
She's staying somewhere that is not so far away from where I'm staying. At that moment, I knew that something is going on between us. I wasn't in control of myself, all I know was I confessed to her when I see her, just like that. She did the same, and that's how we got together ;) It was a day to remember, 8th of March '05. right after our SPM result was announced on the 7th.
We were very sweet, everything went on smoothly, she finished her studies in matriculation college and went into USM right after that. I did my diploma and decided to play around a little, found myself a job, worked as a part-time which later became full-time singer in Tao's. I planned to further up in the university, but at that time being, I wasn't really in the mood to drown myself in the books yet.
The days go on and on, until the heart-breaking news that killed the both of us...
A failed car-jacking attempt took her away from me.
Read it to find out more, the curiosity won't kill you in this case.
I have to admit, it's been 9 months, and I'm still learning how to accept it honestly.
I don't wanna run from it, I'm not avoiding it, I wanna face it, but it's almost like a mission impossible to me.
I think I got over it, but I didn't. Sometimes thinking of it again makes me fall apart.
I'm so used to having her around me that I'm feeling so empty sometimes, even though there are good buddies around me, yet the silence is so loud.
I have to admit that I fell for someone lately ;) I'm not taking her as a 'replacement', make no mistake about that. The feelings are true ;) But it's a rather slow process if you get what I mean.
She's not giving me some very positive signals I have to say, maybe more time is needed? and yet there are some complicated things that are going on on the other side.
I'm still learning...
I'm still empty...
I'm moving on...
=)
life is hard, and that is what makes life meaningful.
Saturday, September 12, 2009
I had to lie and I'm sorry xD
**I'm tagging you (those who are tagged) because I mentioned you or mentioned anything to you regarding what I'm going to write in this post. Teehee.
Doing : reading and blogging.
Listening to : Two is Better than One - Boy Like Girl ft. Taylor Swift (recommending to all of you, their duet goes perfectly)
Another tiring week is over, no more test(s) for the week, but lots of lab reports and tutorials to kill, coping with it quite well though ;) By the way, only had 4 days of classes though since it was a public holiday in Malaysia on this Monday, and that is WHY my class are jam-packed because of the endless flows of replacement classes at night -- think on the bright side? -> *cover my chest with both hands* I SHOULD FEEL GRATEFUL BECAUSE FINALLY I GOT ALL MY TIME FILLED!... ... now that was so ... tuh-rue. Tuh-rue. 'TRUE'.Doing : reading and blogging.
Listening to : Two is Better than One - Boy Like Girl ft. Taylor Swift (recommending to all of you, their duet goes perfectly)
Planning for the so-called 'treating' for seniors of School of Industrial Technology, and so it has been decided :
Venue : House of Steamboat *火锅之家*, Macalister Road, Penang.
Time : Sunday, 13 September '09, 6:oo pm till when everybody says 'I hate to eat'
Places reserved : 100
Treating : final year seniors
Treated by : 1st year juniors with Bleeding Pockets.
Motive : Another interaction session between Jrs. and Srs. (which I think is not really effective)
Anyhow, went back home on Wednesday night and fetched dad to airport on Thursday morning, driver was outstation, mummy's gotta work, so yea, I did the job. While fetching my dad to airport next morning, we went to have half-boiled eggs and kaya toast at a nice place around the airport, and I have to say it's quite cheap for the size of the breakfast! -- I know, just half-boiled eggs and kaya toast, what's the big deal. But seriously it was really nice! No pictures were taken though, nothing to show, sorry xD
Regarding the song that I presented at the USM Wanderer's meeting this week, it was David Tao's new song - 暗恋. I didn't know that what I have to present was the SONG THAT I LIKE, not SONGS THAT I WRITTEN. LOL. I decided to present this song at the very last minute before the session. I like this song a lot, the lyric is just right and nice, and it's simply straight-forward, no twist and turns, at least, that's what I like. For some it may be a bit too cheesy. This song's lyric shows how the guy actually confessed in an indirect way to a girl that he actually loves her that much. It's all about how a guy actually feels when he's liking the girl subtly, and hey, the words are so true. Love the words, good one David Tao =) feel free to go and take a listen!
Regarding the song that I presented at the USM Wanderer's meeting this week, it was David Tao's new song - 暗恋. I didn't know that what I have to present was the SONG THAT I LIKE, not SONGS THAT I WRITTEN. LOL. I decided to present this song at the very last minute before the session. I like this song a lot, the lyric is just right and nice, and it's simply straight-forward, no twist and turns, at least, that's what I like. For some it may be a bit too cheesy. This song's lyric shows how the guy actually confessed in an indirect way to a girl that he actually loves her that much. It's all about how a guy actually feels when he's liking the girl subtly, and hey, the words are so true. Love the words, good one David Tao =) feel free to go and take a listen!
The emcee for the meeting was Christie and Vance though, was forced to tell who's that 'girl' that I refer to in the song, but it's kinda hard to hide my feelings though. If I were to say 'nobody', it's a very obvious lie. Those who know me knows that I actually poured my feelings in when I'm singing. But I simply couldn't tell who that person is, and I thought of a lie and I told it to everyone (for the sake of entertainment xD ) : oh she's not in Malaysia, she's actually at Bulgaria --- and you know what? PEOPLE ACTUALLY BOUGHT THAT! xD Hey people, I don't have any friends or any people that I know that is went to Bulgaria, not even in Europe. Oh yea actually I do have one, but not in Bulgaria, she's in Germany though -- Shir Ling, nicey goody friend ;) the reason I said Bulgaria was, I thought of the foods at the Bulgarian Restaurant located at Batu Feringghi at that moment, I seriously miss the food there!!! Plodiv pork steaks oh my God!!! Ok, back to the main thing, guys, sorry for telling the lies, am really sorry!!! Come to think about it, if I were to tell who that person is, it's not 暗恋 anymore aight, so stick to its definition!!! x) Anyhow, wish me luck, am serious towards her =)
Helped Patrick to fill up the melody for his new song, nice one Patrick, especially the words. We managed to work out the melody, with me changing the melodies of some parts of the song under Patrick's permission. Oh and by the way, something to say to Ray. Ray, life is beautiful, and ratio of men and women in the world today looks kinda fair for men tho xD
And I guess it's my bed time for now, going home in a few hours after the debate training, mummy misses me too much, have to go back and meet her! After all, I'm a goody boy (duh).
Good morning to everyone...
-- sorry for the lies xD
Bowie Ong
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
你不是笨蛋(:
It's 5 in the morning, and I can't get into sleep.
Am half way finishing my stuffs, even though my next class is 12 hours away : the coming 5pm xD
Went to had sushi earlier with Kit Yee and Peng ;) and have to admit was quite full, but am hungry now, the stomach's digest-timer reached it's time already.
Just done checking out my stuffs on Facebook and noticed the 'Fans' and 'All My Friends!' thingy, the trend or craze of this has just begun, everybody is going through the applications -- including me (x Everybody seems to be clueless on what are they actually doing -- including me, but everyone -- including me, is having fun. 'Oh hey I'm your 2nd biggest fan!' 'Why am I being tagged fat?' etc etc. What's the point? I don't wanna know xD no need for any explanation when you're having fun, if not that boring. But we can make good use of it though. I doubt that one is close with EVERYBODY that's on his/her Facebook's friend list. Well now it's time, different people who rarely mingles with each other are being tagged on the same photo, I see this as an ice-breaking opportunity though, since a conversation could be started off by 2 people being tagged on the same photo 'hey you are being tagged as well huh' "yea being tagged fat" 'awww you are nothing close to fat'. LOL. Come on, give me another reason why are we doing the application thingy again? 'I DON'T KNOW'.
I just read somebody's blog, she's not in a good shape, something that you can't tell from the outside, but inside of her, deep inside.
And, if she sees this, I want her to know that :
我永远都愿意当个听众，
安慰你的痛，
保护着你从始至终
(: I'm with you, always.
你一点都不笨, 或许你是个坏蛋 =P，但绝对不是笨蛋.
笑一个吧 (:
over and out, good morning people, and Happy Tuesday Morning, whatever that makes you happy.
Bowie:
悄悄的
静静的
或许舍不得
默默地
静静地
或许很值得
我还在某处守候着
说不定这也是一种幸福的资格
Am half way finishing my stuffs, even though my next class is 12 hours away : the coming 5pm xD
Went to had sushi earlier with Kit Yee and Peng ;) and have to admit was quite full, but am hungry now, the stomach's digest-timer reached it's time already.
Just done checking out my stuffs on Facebook and noticed the 'Fans' and 'All My Friends!' thingy, the trend or craze of this has just begun, everybody is going through the applications -- including me (x Everybody seems to be clueless on what are they actually doing -- including me, but everyone -- including me, is having fun. 'Oh hey I'm your 2nd biggest fan!' 'Why am I being tagged fat?' etc etc. What's the point? I don't wanna know xD no need for any explanation when you're having fun, if not that boring. But we can make good use of it though. I doubt that one is close with EVERYBODY that's on his/her Facebook's friend list. Well now it's time, different people who rarely mingles with each other are being tagged on the same photo, I see this as an ice-breaking opportunity though, since a conversation could be started off by 2 people being tagged on the same photo 'hey you are being tagged as well huh' "yea being tagged fat" 'awww you are nothing close to fat'. LOL. Come on, give me another reason why are we doing the application thingy again? 'I DON'T KNOW'.
I just read somebody's blog, she's not in a good shape, something that you can't tell from the outside, but inside of her, deep inside.
And, if she sees this, I want her to know that :
我永远都愿意当个听众，
安慰你的痛，
保护着你从始至终
(: I'm with you, always.
你一点都不笨, 或许你是个坏蛋 =P，但绝对不是笨蛋.
笑一个吧 (:
over and out, good morning people, and Happy Tuesday Morning, whatever that makes you happy.
Bowie:
悄悄的
静静的
或许舍不得
默默地
静静地
或许很值得
我还在某处守候着
说不定这也是一种幸福的资格
Saturday, September 5, 2009
It's the little thing that matters
To YOU,
Thank YOU, for those little words.
=) at least YOU were reading my post.
It meant a lot to me, seriously.
Though it may not sound like it's something big, but it's every little things that YOU do that matters.
;) see YOU on Monday.
Thank YOU, for those little words.
=) at least YOU were reading my post.
It meant a lot to me, seriously.
Though it may not sound like it's something big, but it's every little things that YOU do that matters.
;) see YOU on Monday.
Thursday, September 3, 2009
I miss enjoying the weekend
It's been awhile since I last enjoyed my weekend to the fullest... I crawled through most of my weekends lately with assignments and revisions for test, and I even had a test on last Saturday, spoiler! Oh and by the way, last week was a black week for me, an accident and series of retarded incidents occurred on me. Nothing goes my way, at least not so off the track, that's the least I could ask for.
I smiled the whole day in front of everybody for a week, wondering would people actually notice what's behind those smiles and laughter. Comprehend me, please =|
Leave all my stuffs behind and enjoy myself throughout the weekend? I can't, I don't wanna screw up my cramp-packed week days, am busy enough already! I'm not complaining about the assignments or tests given, but I seriously miss my weekends... I wanna go to the beach, it's been quite awhile since I last left my footprints on the sand.
I'm not saying that I can't cope with all these, but I need a break. Something's missing, something abstract, something more than words.
Yusa, who is currently in Wolverhampton, UK, texted me a short, simple yet supportive message... When I saw that, my eyes were kinda wet. That message carries a large dose of persistence and warm wishes. Thank you Yusa =D
***I'm longing for words to describe how I'm feeling***
*dead and gone*
I smiled the whole day in front of everybody for a week, wondering would people actually notice what's behind those smiles and laughter. Comprehend me, please =|
Leave all my stuffs behind and enjoy myself throughout the weekend? I can't, I don't wanna screw up my cramp-packed week days, am busy enough already! I'm not complaining about the assignments or tests given, but I seriously miss my weekends... I wanna go to the beach, it's been quite awhile since I last left my footprints on the sand.
I'm not saying that I can't cope with all these, but I need a break. Something's missing, something abstract, something more than words.
Yusa, who is currently in Wolverhampton, UK, texted me a short, simple yet supportive message... When I saw that, my eyes were kinda wet. That message carries a large dose of persistence and warm wishes. Thank you Yusa =D
***I'm longing for words to describe how I'm feeling***
*dead and gone*
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
=)
Despite all my effin' assignments and tests and the dumb-arse BM presentation, even at this hour, I just woke up to continue with my revisions and reports, I think I'm in a pretty good shape.
Before I forget, Happy 20th Birthday, Sue Ann! Welcome to the 20's club.
Oh, to somebody, I seriously hope you've set your alarm clock, and didn't sleep at really 'early' hours, since I don't know what time you actually slept =(
I think she's able to wake up though. Hehe =p
Oh and, I miss you =) yes youuuu you know its you =p
Anyways, good night and good morning, world.
Over and out.
Coming birthday(s) this week:
Claire Su and Peng Peng - 3rd of September
Before I forget, Happy 20th Birthday, Sue Ann! Welcome to the 20's club.
Oh, to somebody, I seriously hope you've set your alarm clock, and didn't sleep at really 'early' hours, since I don't know what time you actually slept =(
I think she's able to wake up though. Hehe =p
Oh and, I miss you =) yes youuuu you know its you =p
Anyways, good night and good morning, world.
Over and out.
Coming birthday(s) this week:
Claire Su and Peng Peng - 3rd of September
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Jocelynn's Birthday =)
It's JOCELYNN'S 20th BIRTHDAY!!!Apart from our busy schedule,
we [me, Mei Teen, Wei Ying] managed to pull out some time
for this mini celebration of her birthday though.
Knowing that she loves ice cream,
the nearest we could get around the university -
Baskin Robbins!
and
Happy 1 month annivesary for knowing each other =)
the rest are the photos taken last night.
生日快乐～我对Kit Yee说
蜡烛点了，蛋糕亮了
生日快乐～雪糕融了
我要祝福你,希望你,喜欢这一切
虽然你~又老一岁了
光阴似箭~二十来了
但没关系~有我们陪着
祝你生日快乐
=)
蜡烛点了，蛋糕亮了
生日快乐～雪糕融了
我要祝福你,希望你,喜欢这一切
虽然你~又老一岁了
光阴似箭~二十来了
但没关系~有我们陪着
祝你生日快乐
=)
Thursday, August 20, 2009
The Square Root of 3
I fear that I will always be
A lonely number like root three.
A three is all that's good and right,
Why must my three keep out of sight?
Beneath a vicious square root sign,
I wish instead I were a nine.
For nine could thwart this evil trick,
with just some quick arithmetic.
I know I'll never see the sun, as 1.7321.
Such is my reality, a sad irrationality.
When hark! What is this I see,
Another square root of a three.
Has quietly come waltzing by,
Together now we multiply
To form a number we prefer,
Rejoicing as an integer.
We break free from our mortal bonds,
And with a wave of magic wands,
Our square root signs become unglued
And love for me has been renewed.
Friday, August 14, 2009
I've been away for too long
...eh...?
So, it's been a while. I have good reasons for not going online too often lately, and yes, I might have been too preoccupied with studies/fun, but maybe life throws you in the directions you're supposed to go whether you want it or not? It does.
Changes (strange, how that differs from 'chances' by only one letter) come regardless what you do to stop them. Some are good, some are bad, all are building your character. Damn, I must be a freaking skyscraper right now, as much building has been done on me lately! :)
Jokes aside (I think its a joke).
Feeling a bit under the weather - if I could, I'd take a plane ride, because above the clouds, the sun is always shining.Check in once in a while - don't be a stranger - and I'll try to do the same.
p/s: as usual the pictures will do the most of my... speeches, the fingers are tired, seriously. I'm only showing some here, most of the photos are in Facebook, do check it out.
Time sequence of photos: latter till then.
Yes and you can tell that the one in the middle is the boss.
We managed to get in and get out of McD safely though (wow)
*I WANT MY MONEY BACK*
*DO I OWE YOU MONEY?*
Nice to see, nice to eat, nice to take photos, certainly not nice to sleep.
When you know you're boring then you'll play some games... *clap clap*
Mister and Misses Head of A2 throughout the camp
*joyride*
Zoe's 20th Birthday
For the best of friends.
The Immensity of Camwhoreness
First 2 weeks
CHEERIO, BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE.
Do check in, will update more often now!
So, it's been a while. I have good reasons for not going online too often lately, and yes, I might have been too preoccupied with studies/fun, but maybe life throws you in the directions you're supposed to go whether you want it or not? It does.
Changes (strange, how that differs from 'chances' by only one letter) come regardless what you do to stop them. Some are good, some are bad, all are building your character. Damn, I must be a freaking skyscraper right now, as much building has been done on me lately! :)
Jokes aside (I think its a joke).
Feeling a bit under the weather - if I could, I'd take a plane ride, because above the clouds, the sun is always shining.Check in once in a while - don't be a stranger - and I'll try to do the same.
p/s: as usual the pictures will do the most of my... speeches, the fingers are tired, seriously. I'm only showing some here, most of the photos are in Facebook, do check it out.
Time sequence of photos: latter till then.
Yes and you can tell that the one in the middle is the boss. 
We managed to get in and get out of McD safely though (wow)
*I WANT MY MONEY BACK*
*DO I OWE YOU MONEY?*
Nice to see, nice to eat, nice to take photos, certainly not nice to sleep.
When you know you're boring then you'll play some games... *clap clap*
Mister and Misses Head of A2 throughout the camp
*joyride*
Zoe's 20th Birthday 
For the best of friends.
The Immensity of Camwhoreness
First 2 weeksCHEERIO, BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE.
Do check in, will update more often now!
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Good Monday
Bowie, Jerwin, Grace @ Vintage Bulgaria
Most people would say they had a wonderful weekend, wonderful Sunday, wonderful Saturday, and you-know-what-else. Well for me, I'd say I had a wonderful Monday, though most people would take Monday as a heads start of another busy week or 9-to-5 pace. Ahaha tagging Jerwin and Grace! Thanks to you two, I've had a good day. Bowie hearts both of you! Well FYI we used to be debators back in our high school days, Grace was from a different school though, while me and Jerwin were in the same. I miss those days, especially those competition moments, how people expressed their point be it in a funny or serious way, or how people over-reacted, how we gloriously dominate the opposition, how people would slam a dictionary on the table just to tell us a definition of a word, aww I MISS THOSE DAYS. Though I know I said too much, OK OK. I'll cut it from here.
AIGHT, THE DAY.
Well Jerwin treated us at the restaurant that he works at now, The Vintage Bulgaria Pub & Restaurant. Wonderful pork ribs, dude, thanks! It was the first time for me, I mean, I never knew there are restaurants around that particular area, even Grace knows about the Ingolf but not me! Guess I got to know the Penang Island a not-worth-mention-bit better now. The ambiance of the restaurant is quite comforting. It can be a nice place for a family dinner, also, a good spot for a candle light dinner with your better-half. I'm planning to treat my brother a nice dinner at this restaurant on his coming birthday in March.
Well, back to the day, we went for movies after lunch, we watched The Punisher, well as what we all know, action-packed, armed and dangerous, it's my first movie after a month. Yes, I've been missing all the new movies for a month. Time-wise, we chose The Punisher. I'm feeling kinda guilty actually, maybe the title The Punisher reminds me of something: I was skipping class and I ought to get punishment! ANYWAYS, we dined at the Chili's after that. We went back to Jerwin's place and jammed for a few hours. It was fun, after all I haven't been jamming with Jerwin for almost a year, and like Grace said, when me and Jerwin combined, we made a perfect duet out of it. By the way, I wanted to listen to Grace singing, but she was reluctant to, though sometimes she might hum a tune or two, when me and Jerwin heard it, we'd know that she can sing. Grace, I hope to hear it from you in the future though, and stop saying that you can't sing, you CAN. The night ends with me and Grace heading home while Jerwin heads out to somewhere else. Oh yes, the rain. It was raining so heavily last night.
Truth be told, the meals we had yesterday were quite heavy, not just the lunch, we had our dinner at Chili's as well. So it was like our lunch and dinner were served with western and european cuisine. I was so full alright.
To conclude the day, it's a day filled with packs of jokes, laughters, nice foods and lot of fun. Well it's not about what we all did, it's about who I was out with. Jerwin and Grace, thanks for the day, really. Until our next debators' reunion (LOL), I hope to see both of you anytime sooner, again.
Once again, I had a good day.
AND I HOPE YOU PEOPLE TOO.
=D
CHEERIO.
AIGHT, THE DAY.
Well Jerwin treated us at the restaurant that he works at now, The Vintage Bulgaria Pub & Restaurant. Wonderful pork ribs, dude, thanks! It was the first time for me, I mean, I never knew there are restaurants around that particular area, even Grace knows about the Ingolf but not me! Guess I got to know the Penang Island a not-worth-mention-bit better now. The ambiance of the restaurant is quite comforting. It can be a nice place for a family dinner, also, a good spot for a candle light dinner with your better-half. I'm planning to treat my brother a nice dinner at this restaurant on his coming birthday in March.
Well, back to the day, we went for movies after lunch, we watched The Punisher, well as what we all know, action-packed, armed and dangerous, it's my first movie after a month. Yes, I've been missing all the new movies for a month. Time-wise, we chose The Punisher. I'm feeling kinda guilty actually, maybe the title The Punisher reminds me of something: I was skipping class and I ought to get punishment! ANYWAYS, we dined at the Chili's after that. We went back to Jerwin's place and jammed for a few hours. It was fun, after all I haven't been jamming with Jerwin for almost a year, and like Grace said, when me and Jerwin combined, we made a perfect duet out of it. By the way, I wanted to listen to Grace singing, but she was reluctant to, though sometimes she might hum a tune or two, when me and Jerwin heard it, we'd know that she can sing. Grace, I hope to hear it from you in the future though, and stop saying that you can't sing, you CAN. The night ends with me and Grace heading home while Jerwin heads out to somewhere else. Oh yes, the rain. It was raining so heavily last night.
Truth be told, the meals we had yesterday were quite heavy, not just the lunch, we had our dinner at Chili's as well. So it was like our lunch and dinner were served with western and european cuisine. I was so full alright.
To conclude the day, it's a day filled with packs of jokes, laughters, nice foods and lot of fun. Well it's not about what we all did, it's about who I was out with. Jerwin and Grace, thanks for the day, really. Until our next debators' reunion (LOL), I hope to see both of you anytime sooner, again.
Once again, I had a good day.
AND I HOPE YOU PEOPLE TOO.
=D
CHEERIO.
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Bowie and his 25 things
I'm sure many of you have seen or filled out the 25 Random Things About Me note on Facebook (that is, if you're on Facebook). Though I've read all my friends notes with interest and enthusiasm, for weeks I have resisted writing my own. I'm not sure why seeing as how I have no issue (no new ones) sharing personal details with myself--I think this blog is testament to that. And a few months ago I wrote a very involved 100 Things list, maybe its because there's nothing much I can do for now, yesterday I finally caved and decided to fill out my own. Here it is:
1. I am the eldest among 2. (my younger brother, is 5 years younger than me).
2. There is no way for me NOT to write. Beyond my passion, it's my 2nd lifeline. The process of writing allows me to delve deeper within and understand myself better, as well as work through everything. Preferably call it a sweet escape of mine.
3. I am a social bee, but I also used to love being alone. I really never get “bored” and find ways to entertain myself for hours on end! But not for now, the last thing I ever needed is emptiness or loneliness or depression or within the captivity of any of what I've mentioned.
4. I type fast, so fast, so accurate, but I noticed my handwriting sucks since I've typed a lot lately.
5. I have ONE white hair on my head. That is if you can notice me in person, it's on the right side of my head.
6. If I could figure out how to do it, I'd live in water. I fantasize about a waterproof computer, keyboard and mouse, and even a sound-waterproof piano or guitar!!!
7. I want to write a book (many books, in fact), but am so overwhelmed at the mere thought of it that I can’t seem to get myself to begin.
8. I like multiples of 2.
9. Sometimes I'm stubborn and cantankerous, but I can be gentle and compassionate, too.
10. I can’t wait to graduate!
11. I'm the type of calm person who can be quite calm even if, when Godzilla is next to my house or Martians invites me to play poker on Facebook. LMAO.
12. I constantly dream about my late wifey, Cheryl, but its not all bad because she wants me to move on, which I know I have to. She changed my perception towards life, again.
13. I hate cigarettes down to the core. (Yes I don't smoke)
14. I am STILL a true Scorpio.
15. I've been playing Meetoto a lot lately, I think those who are not playing should go and give it a try.
16. I am reasonable balanced between gullible, skeptical, logical, analytical and intuitive.
17. Lifelong optimist, I am.
18. I want to cook.
19. But I hate to cook.
20. People turn to me for advice on dating and relationships all the time. I love it! Even though I’m no expert, for some reason I find I can usually accurately assess other people’s problems, and help them work through them.
21. I'm a solitary replinisher (when I have to be one).
22. I'm a proactive optimist (still there are things that took me quite awhile to get over with).
23. I think humans are starved for affection, and showing even just a little kindness to others goes A LONG way.
24. Nothing makes me happier than partaking in, and witnessing, random acts of kindness.
25. I think of what you might have heard from everywhere you go, which is: there is no other better time than now. If you wanna do something then just do it, as long as it is the right thing to do, as long as it is something that is worth fighting for, then you've already made your choice. So, I'm going to play Meetoto right now. Suprised? LOL.
Cheerio.
1. I am the eldest among 2. (my younger brother, is 5 years younger than me).
2. There is no way for me NOT to write. Beyond my passion, it's my 2nd lifeline. The process of writing allows me to delve deeper within and understand myself better, as well as work through everything. Preferably call it a sweet escape of mine.
3. I am a social bee, but I also used to love being alone. I really never get “bored” and find ways to entertain myself for hours on end! But not for now, the last thing I ever needed is emptiness or loneliness or depression or within the captivity of any of what I've mentioned.
4. I type fast, so fast, so accurate, but I noticed my handwriting sucks since I've typed a lot lately.
5. I have ONE white hair on my head. That is if you can notice me in person, it's on the right side of my head.
6. If I could figure out how to do it, I'd live in water. I fantasize about a waterproof computer, keyboard and mouse, and even a sound-waterproof piano or guitar!!!
7. I want to write a book (many books, in fact), but am so overwhelmed at the mere thought of it that I can’t seem to get myself to begin.
8. I like multiples of 2.
9. Sometimes I'm stubborn and cantankerous, but I can be gentle and compassionate, too.
10. I can’t wait to graduate!
11. I'm the type of calm person who can be quite calm even if, when Godzilla is next to my house or Martians invites me to play poker on Facebook. LMAO.
12. I constantly dream about my late wifey, Cheryl, but its not all bad because she wants me to move on, which I know I have to. She changed my perception towards life, again.
13. I hate cigarettes down to the core. (Yes I don't smoke)
14. I am STILL a true Scorpio.
15. I've been playing Meetoto a lot lately, I think those who are not playing should go and give it a try.
16. I am reasonable balanced between gullible, skeptical, logical, analytical and intuitive.
17. Lifelong optimist, I am.
18. I want to cook.
19. But I hate to cook.
20. People turn to me for advice on dating and relationships all the time. I love it! Even though I’m no expert, for some reason I find I can usually accurately assess other people’s problems, and help them work through them.
21. I'm a solitary replinisher (when I have to be one).
22. I'm a proactive optimist (still there are things that took me quite awhile to get over with).
23. I think humans are starved for affection, and showing even just a little kindness to others goes A LONG way.
24. Nothing makes me happier than partaking in, and witnessing, random acts of kindness.
25. I think of what you might have heard from everywhere you go, which is: there is no other better time than now. If you wanna do something then just do it, as long as it is the right thing to do, as long as it is something that is worth fighting for, then you've already made your choice. So, I'm going to play Meetoto right now. Suprised? LOL.
Cheerio.
Thursday, February 5, 2009
Random: Identity Crisis
I am not sure why so many of us center our identity on what we do, rather than who we are. I think who we are becomes tied and steeped into our careers. It's unfortunate, because we place so much undue importance on vocation, and material things, rather than how we treat people, the relationships we keep, the family we love. Shouldn't the latter be more pivotal to our happiness? And to our identity? For whatever reason, I think we tend to believe we are nothing unless we have a stable career, or are at least fulfilling and achieving something, anything, everyday.
I have thought about this a lot with our current economic recession, and the unbelievable amount of jobs that have been lost. Of course it affects anyone who has been laid off -- men, women, fresh out of college 20-somethings -- but I have to think that it must be especially difficult for the breadwinners of the families. Obviously it's rough because this person is the one who brings in most of the income, and without that necessary money, the entire family suffers, but what about that person's identity and self-esteem? Their role in the family, and in life, has been to provide. What happens with (s)he is no longer able to do that? Won't that person begin to feel depressed, confused, and ultimately, a bit worthless? Of course, they are not worthless - they are still the same person they were before they lost their job; our core characters and personalities, while they may always shift a little, remain relatively the same. But it is no longer possible for that individual to fulfill the duty of providing, and monetarily caring for the family.
I am not the breadwinner of my family, quite the contrary. I don't even have a family of my own yet, which is a good thing since it's been difficult just to keep myself afloat with the part-time job's income because I'm just a student, and for a 22 years old adult who is not financially independent, YET. As a student, I have struggled with self-confidence issues in terms of being financially stable and independent, I am still relying on my family's financial support. I'm imagining the future-me working away from home and how things might flow (on the bright side): I am making enough to survive. I am able to pay my rent, utility and grocery bills, etc. I even have some extra change for things like gym membership and happy hours with friends. But as the years progressed, and if thing (still) goes wrong (e.g.: recession), the rent grew steeper, and I lost my job, and I might live an unstable life of freelance while keep sending out my resumes everyday, all that changed. Every month will be a struggle. Since I already pay for a gym membership, I just utilize the equipment and classes there. Lesser, or maybe even no more happy hours with friends. With that, I've made huge changes to my lifestyle to accommodate my lack of funds, and I suspect, as the months roll on, I will continue to downgrade.
But here's the thing: this lack of money, and adequate work, might be killing me mentally. The adequate requirements will just make me even more inadequate, and in the end I might be buried under the avalanche of my own inadequacies. I'll just feel like a giant waste of space. I often forget to take stock of the reasons why I'm an important member of society (like, I aim to treat everyone kindly and with respect and I smile at strangers in the hopes of bettering their days) and focus on all the reasons why I'm purposeless.
It's terrible, I know. But please don't think I'm not doing anything about it; Though I am still a student, and am going to be a student years to come, I'm not sitting here, flipping books in a sulk and hanging out with friends all day and night. I am job hunting. Searching for something that's part-time or temporary. It doesn't matter. I just need more constant work to do -- to accomplish -- and a paycheck. I have been searching for tutor positions for entry-level studies, and non-profits. I'm hoping to find something related to music (e.g.: piano lessons or part-timers of live band in pubs?). I'm also looking in the environmental technology industry. I know I'm not qualified for much there, but it helps alot in the future when I'm working in my dad's any firm-of-choice. Thanks dad for talking me into how my field of studies is related with environmental technology's implementation. In the end, I just want to interact with and help people live healthier, happier lives.
It's hard to have so many goals, also, but not really know where to start. Does this ever happen to you? Do you ever feel frozen by your endless goals? I have so many things I want to accomplish in life that I tend to find myself stuck, and overwhelmed, before I even begin. How do you counteract this? I know the answer is simple: just do. But for some reason, it doesn't feel so easy.
I have thought about this a lot with our current economic recession, and the unbelievable amount of jobs that have been lost. Of course it affects anyone who has been laid off -- men, women, fresh out of college 20-somethings -- but I have to think that it must be especially difficult for the breadwinners of the families. Obviously it's rough because this person is the one who brings in most of the income, and without that necessary money, the entire family suffers, but what about that person's identity and self-esteem? Their role in the family, and in life, has been to provide. What happens with (s)he is no longer able to do that? Won't that person begin to feel depressed, confused, and ultimately, a bit worthless? Of course, they are not worthless - they are still the same person they were before they lost their job; our core characters and personalities, while they may always shift a little, remain relatively the same. But it is no longer possible for that individual to fulfill the duty of providing, and monetarily caring for the family.
I am not the breadwinner of my family, quite the contrary. I don't even have a family of my own yet, which is a good thing since it's been difficult just to keep myself afloat with the part-time job's income because I'm just a student, and for a 22 years old adult who is not financially independent, YET. As a student, I have struggled with self-confidence issues in terms of being financially stable and independent, I am still relying on my family's financial support. I'm imagining the future-me working away from home and how things might flow (on the bright side): I am making enough to survive. I am able to pay my rent, utility and grocery bills, etc. I even have some extra change for things like gym membership and happy hours with friends. But as the years progressed, and if thing (still) goes wrong (e.g.: recession), the rent grew steeper, and I lost my job, and I might live an unstable life of freelance while keep sending out my resumes everyday, all that changed. Every month will be a struggle. Since I already pay for a gym membership, I just utilize the equipment and classes there. Lesser, or maybe even no more happy hours with friends. With that, I've made huge changes to my lifestyle to accommodate my lack of funds, and I suspect, as the months roll on, I will continue to downgrade.
But here's the thing: this lack of money, and adequate work, might be killing me mentally. The adequate requirements will just make me even more inadequate, and in the end I might be buried under the avalanche of my own inadequacies. I'll just feel like a giant waste of space. I often forget to take stock of the reasons why I'm an important member of society (like, I aim to treat everyone kindly and with respect and I smile at strangers in the hopes of bettering their days) and focus on all the reasons why I'm purposeless.
It's terrible, I know. But please don't think I'm not doing anything about it; Though I am still a student, and am going to be a student years to come, I'm not sitting here, flipping books in a sulk and hanging out with friends all day and night. I am job hunting. Searching for something that's part-time or temporary. It doesn't matter. I just need more constant work to do -- to accomplish -- and a paycheck. I have been searching for tutor positions for entry-level studies, and non-profits. I'm hoping to find something related to music (e.g.: piano lessons or part-timers of live band in pubs?). I'm also looking in the environmental technology industry. I know I'm not qualified for much there, but it helps alot in the future when I'm working in my dad's any firm-of-choice. Thanks dad for talking me into how my field of studies is related with environmental technology's implementation. In the end, I just want to interact with and help people live healthier, happier lives.
It's hard to have so many goals, also, but not really know where to start. Does this ever happen to you? Do you ever feel frozen by your endless goals? I have so many things I want to accomplish in life that I tend to find myself stuck, and overwhelmed, before I even begin. How do you counteract this? I know the answer is simple: just do. But for some reason, it doesn't feel so easy.
It is not easy. In fact, I already know where to start, I just need more time to understand why I want to start things up that way.
Have you noticed people struggling with their identities as we roll deeper into recession?
Have you noticed people struggling with their identities as we roll deeper into recession?
Fetching thoughts of view, people!
And for those who are on the same boat with me, I say to you:
Go with the flow,
Stay low as you go,
Aim high for your goal,
Obstacles come and go,
Your goal remains whole,
You reached your goal,
then you're as good as gold.
Cheerio.
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
Happily Ever After
picture of the day: I JUST WANNA LIVE!!!
People around me are asking me if I'm okay.
People, don't worry about me. As someone used to say this to me, "you are like a hard rock, especially when you are asleep." (copyright; Rachel Lydia Low)
Well not just when I sleep, come on, all I'm trying to say is that, I can take this. Undoubtedly, it hurts, so deep, but I HAVE TO MOVE ON. The world ain't gonna stop spinning just because I lost her, and without questions, she would want me to move on too.
As a part of my sharing, there are times that I dream about her. In fact, I dream about her most of the time, lately. Before I go on, there is something I have to tell you guys. If you are a skeptic and not ready to accept something that is beyond scientific explanation, I suggest you to walk away from this page, right away. Because what had happened, is truly, beyond what we all could explain. As the warning is given, I will not tolerate with any nonconstructive comments. I don't know where's that place, but its some place... beautiful and peaceful. There are colors in that dream, but its nothing like what we've seen in this world, its something more, I can't describe it in words, it's way beyond descriptions. I came to realize that this is more than a dream, and I have to make sure that I'm not a paranoid, just yet.
In that dream, she flashed me across the sweet old times that we used to have, years of relationship, anything from A to Z, and the 'slide show' started and ended in just a few seconds. Along with a song, as I could recall, 'BOATS and BIRDS' by Gregory and The Hawk.
The dream was so real, but I know my hands weren't reaching for her and I don't know why. We talked a bit in that dream, she was smiling, as I can recall. But I can only recall a sentence, and its a phrase from Boats and Birds, *leave me your wake to remember you why*.
She never left me, she simply... transformed... into something beyond our living dimension. At least that's what my conscious wants me to believe, and that's what SHE wants me to believe. She's always there. And in fact, we are still living our way, happily ever after.
I told this to Tzyy Ling last night when she called me all the way from Singapore, she scolded me for being creepy, but hey, its not creepy at all, I call it beautiful.
TRUTH BE TOLD....
I'm living on the bright side of this... prison, Matrix, stage, zoo, theater, you-name-it and ocean of diarrhea (teeeeeheeeeeee Debbie).
So people, make the world a better place by having less worries on your hands! [you are gonna ask me 'but how?']
Yeah, but how? LOL.
Lets try it anyway shall we?
Cheerio.
People around me are asking me if I'm okay.
People, don't worry about me. As someone used to say this to me, "you are like a hard rock, especially when you are asleep." (copyright; Rachel Lydia Low)
Well not just when I sleep, come on, all I'm trying to say is that, I can take this. Undoubtedly, it hurts, so deep, but I HAVE TO MOVE ON. The world ain't gonna stop spinning just because I lost her, and without questions, she would want me to move on too.
As a part of my sharing, there are times that I dream about her. In fact, I dream about her most of the time, lately. Before I go on, there is something I have to tell you guys. If you are a skeptic and not ready to accept something that is beyond scientific explanation, I suggest you to walk away from this page, right away. Because what had happened, is truly, beyond what we all could explain. As the warning is given, I will not tolerate with any nonconstructive comments. I don't know where's that place, but its some place... beautiful and peaceful. There are colors in that dream, but its nothing like what we've seen in this world, its something more, I can't describe it in words, it's way beyond descriptions. I came to realize that this is more than a dream, and I have to make sure that I'm not a paranoid, just yet.
In that dream, she flashed me across the sweet old times that we used to have, years of relationship, anything from A to Z, and the 'slide show' started and ended in just a few seconds. Along with a song, as I could recall, 'BOATS and BIRDS' by Gregory and The Hawk.
The dream was so real, but I know my hands weren't reaching for her and I don't know why. We talked a bit in that dream, she was smiling, as I can recall. But I can only recall a sentence, and its a phrase from Boats and Birds, *leave me your wake to remember you why*.
She never left me, she simply... transformed... into something beyond our living dimension. At least that's what my conscious wants me to believe, and that's what SHE wants me to believe. She's always there. And in fact, we are still living our way, happily ever after.
I told this to Tzyy Ling last night when she called me all the way from Singapore, she scolded me for being creepy, but hey, its not creepy at all, I call it beautiful.
TRUTH BE TOLD....
I'm living on the bright side of this... prison, Matrix, stage, zoo, theater, you-name-it and ocean of diarrhea (teeeeeheeeeeee Debbie).
So people, make the world a better place by having less worries on your hands! [you are gonna ask me 'but how?']
Yeah, but how? LOL.
Lets try it anyway shall we?
Cheerio.
Thursday, January 22, 2009
I wish I could save her
It's been a long while since I last blogged.
How is everybody doing? Well I can feel it, this blog is getting 'dustier' than ever. Haha, its ok, I've cleaned the dust. But I don't think anyone is reading it anyway, since it hasn't been updated for so long. Readers come and go.
Actually, I'd never think of... blogging again, after what happened recently. There was a big change in my life, and I'm not sure if I accepted it in a very honest manner just yet.
I'm not going to say when, straight to the point. My beloved soul mate, wifey, lover, girlfriend, best friend, friend, listener, adviser, part-of-me, best-of-me and my everything, Cheryl, just passed away.
It happened on the night when I couldn't fetch her home from work because I was at some place else with my family. It was on that particular night, things went wrong. All the wrong things happened at the wrong time. A failed carjacking attempt, with 4 stabs at her abdomen, she was taken away within minutes. A very tension call from her brother, and what was said on the phone blanked my mind. Say no more, the next thing I did was to be there, the hospital, but from the phone call her brother made, somehow a voice in my head is telling me a word: hopeless.
I reached there, and the whole scene ripped my heart apart, it was dramatically tragic, terrible, horrible and God-knows-what-else. On the gurney, was your girlfriend, lying there breathless. No nurses nor docs around her to take care or do something to save her, of course, they did it already, sad to say they tried their best. I knew she was already gone, but I just can't take it, I can't. I kept telling myself she was just unconscious, and that she will open her eyes in moments. I wasn't crying, but the tears overflown. Her parents were there, they cried so hard, they just lost their baby girl.
"Baby you'll wake up real soon, we still have a fondue to fill our stomachs with at Haagen's tomorrow so you better wake up fast." I refused to accept the fact that she is gone. I can't take it any longer, and I walked to her brother and said to him:" let me know when she's awake." I left her brother speechless, because I was completely out of my mind by saying all that to him. I went into the washroom, I stared at the mirror for so long. I couldn't breath. No, nothing was choking me, but it was suffocating. It was like there wasn't any air. I washed my face, and even came up with a thought that everything is just a bad dream and I'd wake up once I walked outta the wash room. No, nothings changed after I walked outta the wash room.
My legs got numb and soften... I couldn't walk. It was then I started crying so hard. She is gone, really, gone. Autopsy reports the cause of death as: 4 stabbed wounds on the abdomen, excessive bleeding and pain weakens the victim, and believed to have died on the spot before concerning personnels approached the spot.
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I haven't, and wasn't ready to finish our chapter. In a very cruel manner, she was taken away, just like that. Our past exists there, our chapters are endless, our stories are never-ending, but you are not here, not anymore.
For always, I wish I could save you.
You know I do, God knows I do.
If people would say something like... "He lost his God damned mind because his gf passed away."
Figure of speech, but I did lost my mind. True about people saying they lost their mind when terrible things happened. Because of what? Because when it happens, it doesn't come knocking on your door, instead, it stabs on your conscious, your mind is now blank, you are concealed inside your circle of question marks, because you don't know what to believe, not even if the truth is just in front of your eyes.
Come to think about it, what is the big deal with a couple breaking up? It's nothing, absolutely nothing at all. Breaking up is just a process where 2 lovers take a step back, from lover to best friends, or friends. Nothing is missing. A friend will still take care of you like he or she always does. Just minus the sweet talks and sweet names.
Sorry for being philosophical, and I understand I've talk too much.
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I just... wish I could save you, Cheryl.
God knows you want me to be happy, and I know it.
I hope that the world turns, and that things get better.
I hope that the unfortunate incident that occured on you won't occur on anyone else, and I know you'd think that way if you were to be me.
It seems strange, that life ended in such a terrible manner. One life is taken, but it killed two of us. Time will not heal this, in fact, time will not heal anything at all. I need to move on.
For you, I'm moving on.
With all my heart, and I always do, I love you.
Soul mate, wifey, lover, girlfriend, best friend, friend, listener, adviser, part-of-me, best-of-me and my everything, Cheryl.
Rest in peace.
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How is everybody doing? Well I can feel it, this blog is getting 'dustier' than ever. Haha, its ok, I've cleaned the dust. But I don't think anyone is reading it anyway, since it hasn't been updated for so long. Readers come and go.
Actually, I'd never think of... blogging again, after what happened recently. There was a big change in my life, and I'm not sure if I accepted it in a very honest manner just yet.
I'm not going to say when, straight to the point. My beloved soul mate, wifey, lover, girlfriend, best friend, friend, listener, adviser, part-of-me, best-of-me and my everything, Cheryl, just passed away.
It happened on the night when I couldn't fetch her home from work because I was at some place else with my family. It was on that particular night, things went wrong. All the wrong things happened at the wrong time. A failed carjacking attempt, with 4 stabs at her abdomen, she was taken away within minutes. A very tension call from her brother, and what was said on the phone blanked my mind. Say no more, the next thing I did was to be there, the hospital, but from the phone call her brother made, somehow a voice in my head is telling me a word: hopeless.
I reached there, and the whole scene ripped my heart apart, it was dramatically tragic, terrible, horrible and God-knows-what-else. On the gurney, was your girlfriend, lying there breathless. No nurses nor docs around her to take care or do something to save her, of course, they did it already, sad to say they tried their best. I knew she was already gone, but I just can't take it, I can't. I kept telling myself she was just unconscious, and that she will open her eyes in moments. I wasn't crying, but the tears overflown. Her parents were there, they cried so hard, they just lost their baby girl.
"Baby you'll wake up real soon, we still have a fondue to fill our stomachs with at Haagen's tomorrow so you better wake up fast." I refused to accept the fact that she is gone. I can't take it any longer, and I walked to her brother and said to him:" let me know when she's awake." I left her brother speechless, because I was completely out of my mind by saying all that to him. I went into the washroom, I stared at the mirror for so long. I couldn't breath. No, nothing was choking me, but it was suffocating. It was like there wasn't any air. I washed my face, and even came up with a thought that everything is just a bad dream and I'd wake up once I walked outta the wash room. No, nothings changed after I walked outta the wash room.
My legs got numb and soften... I couldn't walk. It was then I started crying so hard. She is gone, really, gone. Autopsy reports the cause of death as: 4 stabbed wounds on the abdomen, excessive bleeding and pain weakens the victim, and believed to have died on the spot before concerning personnels approached the spot.
...
I haven't, and wasn't ready to finish our chapter. In a very cruel manner, she was taken away, just like that. Our past exists there, our chapters are endless, our stories are never-ending, but you are not here, not anymore.
For always, I wish I could save you.
You know I do, God knows I do.
If people would say something like... "He lost his God damned mind because his gf passed away."
Figure of speech, but I did lost my mind. True about people saying they lost their mind when terrible things happened. Because of what? Because when it happens, it doesn't come knocking on your door, instead, it stabs on your conscious, your mind is now blank, you are concealed inside your circle of question marks, because you don't know what to believe, not even if the truth is just in front of your eyes.
Come to think about it, what is the big deal with a couple breaking up? It's nothing, absolutely nothing at all. Breaking up is just a process where 2 lovers take a step back, from lover to best friends, or friends. Nothing is missing. A friend will still take care of you like he or she always does. Just minus the sweet talks and sweet names.
Sorry for being philosophical, and I understand I've talk too much.
...
I just... wish I could save you, Cheryl.
God knows you want me to be happy, and I know it.
I hope that the world turns, and that things get better.
I hope that the unfortunate incident that occured on you won't occur on anyone else, and I know you'd think that way if you were to be me.
It seems strange, that life ended in such a terrible manner. One life is taken, but it killed two of us. Time will not heal this, in fact, time will not heal anything at all. I need to move on.
For you, I'm moving on.
With all my heart, and I always do, I love you.
Soul mate, wifey, lover, girlfriend, best friend, friend, listener, adviser, part-of-me, best-of-me and my everything, Cheryl.
Rest in peace.
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