This is what I love doing lately - creating picture collages.
Everything lasted forever in the picture.
<3
... damn, caffeine on high, wth.
Thursday, February 4, 2010
Picture Collages
This is what I love doing lately - creating picture collages.
Everything lasted forever in the picture.
<3
... damn, caffeine on high, wth.
搁下面具的小聚会
今晚，偶将用中文来写部落格。呵呵。
地点: Starbucks -> Segafredo @ GP
时间: 二月二日晚上十一点～二月三日凌晨三点钟
参加聚会的是 Bowie 和 Debbie
参加条件：搁下面具，以真正的自己现身。
就这样，一把吉他，一个DSLR数码相机，一‘台’不能吃的苹果，两杯巧克力冰，和两个在汪洋中相遇的水手，以音乐和欢笑度过了一整晚。
两个人，
厌倦了身边许多自称“朋友”却又无法给予身为朋友应有的【真诚】，
厌倦了被【为何人们总是看不透我？】这个问题盘绕，
厌倦了人们接受不了真正的自己，
厌倦了为他人的期望和批评而改变原本的自己却又满足不了他人，
厌倦了种种，
而我们的要求其实很简单，就是做回真正的自己，搁下面具的自己。
其实我本身还蛮佩服Debbie的。
她说她很习惯在必要的时候，带上面具和微笑，带过某些其实令她很沮丧的事情。
她说完了，我把自己放在她的位置，我觉得我做不到。那种感受，谁能懂。当然，当你说“谁能懂”的时候，身边肯定会有人来说：我明白...，我了解...，很想问他们一句：真的吗？你真的懂吗？你真的明白吗？你真的了解吗？。。。
人性的弱点：人们在乎于判断一个人，多过于如何去好好认识和接受一个人的种种。
你连一个人的性格都没法完全看透，那你又怎样去在一个人身上做出所谓“正确”的判断呢？
更可悲的是，所谓的“判断”，变成了“定论”。
人云亦云，你说啥，我跟着说啥。
一传十，十传百，假成真，错成对，要去纠正或为自己誊清，简直就比登天还难。
那当然，我们改变不了整个世界和社会的动态。相信每个人私底下都会藏着很多副面具，在不同的时候，面对不同的人，跟着情况而【变脸】。这让我想起了一部很著名的电影里的其中一句金言，这部电影是V for Vendetta，那句金言如下：
地点: Starbucks -> Segafredo @ GP
时间: 二月二日晚上十一点～二月三日凌晨三点钟
参加聚会的是 Bowie 和 Debbie
参加条件：搁下面具，以真正的自己现身。
就这样，一把吉他，一个DSLR数码相机，一‘台’不能吃的苹果，两杯巧克力冰，和两个在汪洋中相遇的水手，以音乐和欢笑度过了一整晚。
两个人，
厌倦了身边许多自称“朋友”却又无法给予身为朋友应有的【真诚】，
厌倦了被【为何人们总是看不透我？】这个问题盘绕，
厌倦了人们接受不了真正的自己，
厌倦了为他人的期望和批评而改变原本的自己却又满足不了他人，
厌倦了种种，
而我们的要求其实很简单，就是做回真正的自己，搁下面具的自己。
其实我本身还蛮佩服Debbie的。
她说她很习惯在必要的时候，带上面具和微笑，带过某些其实令她很沮丧的事情。
她说完了，我把自己放在她的位置，我觉得我做不到。那种感受，谁能懂。当然，当你说“谁能懂”的时候，身边肯定会有人来说：我明白...，我了解...，很想问他们一句：真的吗？你真的懂吗？你真的明白吗？你真的了解吗？。。。
人性的弱点：人们在乎于判断一个人，多过于如何去好好认识和接受一个人的种种。
你连一个人的性格都没法完全看透，那你又怎样去在一个人身上做出所谓“正确”的判断呢？
更可悲的是，所谓的“判断”，变成了“定论”。
人云亦云，你说啥，我跟着说啥。
一传十，十传百，假成真，错成对，要去纠正或为自己誊清，简直就比登天还难。
那当然，我们改变不了整个世界和社会的动态。相信每个人私底下都会藏着很多副面具，在不同的时候，面对不同的人，跟着情况而【变脸】。这让我想起了一部很著名的电影里的其中一句金言，这部电影是V for Vendetta，那句金言如下：
"You wear a mask for so long, you forget who you were beneath it."
当然，我们的情况比这个还糟，我们不是"a mask", 而是"a few masks".
身为凡人的我，不懂Debbie赞成我的提议与否，如下：
做回真正的自己，是我们的人生目标。当然，我们还有很多目标的说，事业啊，想做的事情啊，等等。当然，途中肯定会遇到很多障碍，同样的，要为了他人的目标和期望而活，我们手上的【面具】就派上用场了。面具归面具，我们还是要记得自己的原貌。途中遇到的种种绝望，就当着是人生中必经的煎熬，煎熬中自己也会成长。煎熬中，目标也越来越接近自己了。煎熬中，你变得更坚强了。哭过，跌倒过，一切都是值得的。人生本来就是苦的，你煎熬过了，苦尽甘来，回头一望，所有的煎熬都是形成了一个阶梯，一个一直带你往上走的阶梯。
我跟她说，要在【为他人的期望和目标而活】和【做真正自己】中找出平衡点。
我找不到一个合适的方法或比喻来为她解释。但我相信，她肯定可以领悟得到。
我答应她，当她需要任何支柱的时候，我一直都存在。
虽然昨晚和她才见面第三次，但这三次，都是可贵的三次。
三次而已，她就好比一个我认识了很多年的老友。
两人间的友情就是那么直接，那么投机。
以前的我还觉得说拥有一大班朋友还蛮“酷”的说。
可那时候连自己都搞不清楚【朋友】真正的定义是什么。
当然，朋友多绝对不是坏事，想想下，我交的朋友不是以数量来算的，而是以圈子。
可能现在渐渐长大了，思想多少也改变了，数量也渐渐不重要了。
朋友我当然珍惜，但更要珍惜的是，
那几个可以完完全全接受不带面具的你，
愿意无条件付出真诚和帮助的知己，
知己难寻这句话不是白说的。
当然，我才走到20岁的阶段而已，将来还会遇见谁，我不知道。
啊。我的中文卡住了。算了，用英文了事。
--
When people think that it's cool to have a lot of friends around them,
I'd prefer to always have the special few who's always around,
Who can accept the whole of you,
Who defines the meaning of friend,
Sailor, you are definitely one of them.
To Sailors, with ♥
身为凡人的我，不懂Debbie赞成我的提议与否，如下：
做回真正的自己，是我们的人生目标。当然，我们还有很多目标的说，事业啊，想做的事情啊，等等。当然，途中肯定会遇到很多障碍，同样的，要为了他人的目标和期望而活，我们手上的【面具】就派上用场了。面具归面具，我们还是要记得自己的原貌。途中遇到的种种绝望，就当着是人生中必经的煎熬，煎熬中自己也会成长。煎熬中，目标也越来越接近自己了。煎熬中，你变得更坚强了。哭过，跌倒过，一切都是值得的。人生本来就是苦的，你煎熬过了，苦尽甘来，回头一望，所有的煎熬都是形成了一个阶梯，一个一直带你往上走的阶梯。
我跟她说，要在【为他人的期望和目标而活】和【做真正自己】中找出平衡点。
我找不到一个合适的方法或比喻来为她解释。但我相信，她肯定可以领悟得到。
我答应她，当她需要任何支柱的时候，我一直都存在。
虽然昨晚和她才见面第三次，但这三次，都是可贵的三次。
三次而已，她就好比一个我认识了很多年的老友。
两人间的友情就是那么直接，那么投机。
以前的我还觉得说拥有一大班朋友还蛮“酷”的说。
可那时候连自己都搞不清楚【朋友】真正的定义是什么。
当然，朋友多绝对不是坏事，想想下，我交的朋友不是以数量来算的，而是以圈子。
可能现在渐渐长大了，思想多少也改变了，数量也渐渐不重要了。
朋友我当然珍惜，但更要珍惜的是，
那几个可以完完全全接受不带面具的你，
愿意无条件付出真诚和帮助的知己，
知己难寻这句话不是白说的。
当然，我才走到20岁的阶段而已，将来还会遇见谁，我不知道。
啊。我的中文卡住了。算了，用英文了事。
--
When people think that it's cool to have a lot of friends around them,
I'd prefer to always have the special few who's always around,
Who can accept the whole of you,
Who defines the meaning of friend,
Sailor, you are definitely one of them.
To Sailors, with ♥
Sunday, January 31, 2010
As far as I can see there is no land
Did I just lost myself a good friend? Or did I just started a new friendship?
I don't know.
Your judgement/analysis :
We are not as compatible as we think we are. True.
Our main emphasize of the friendship was based on our interest. True.
And now I'm wondering, were you being sincere all the while, or you were just entertaining me like you entertain any other normal friends, not a close buddy? Since you mentioned our friendship's main emphasize was based on our interests, I did notice that all the while but I denied it, so now it's true, that I am just a friend, that happens to have common interest that overlaps with yours.
Because you can't explain and give me the clarifications on the all the whys, you 'simplify' the whole thing to a big misunderstanding, and you will be the villain of the story, and you apologize, and that's it, the end. Problem-solving? Way to go. If its something that's meant to be kept deep inside your heart, do tell me, so that I won't wonder and wonder and wonder and HOPING there might be something to turn things over.
Kick-start everything is not easy, and sometimes impossible, brother. The way I see it, is like trying to piece and complete a shattered puzzle all over again, with a few missing pieces.
And I will never, ever, be able to understand why the phrase 'Saving special love for someone special' is being used. What point will it make in between us? Or are you claiming that I shouldn't love everyone, I shouldn't love my friend, and that I should love my better-half only?
Love all, love her the most. That's how it should be said.
And the answer for you if you thought that I'm making a big fuss outta it, because knowing you (not totally), I think you will bear this thought :
Because I care, and I thought you were the closest buddy that I could go to any other time. The one that I can always rely one when everyone else is not.
... it was a bad dream, it was like fighting for a system planned to fail.
Thanks for all you've done.
I don't know.
Your judgement/analysis :
We are not as compatible as we think we are. True.
Our main emphasize of the friendship was based on our interest. True.
And now I'm wondering, were you being sincere all the while, or you were just entertaining me like you entertain any other normal friends, not a close buddy? Since you mentioned our friendship's main emphasize was based on our interests, I did notice that all the while but I denied it, so now it's true, that I am just a friend, that happens to have common interest that overlaps with yours.
Because you can't explain and give me the clarifications on the all the whys, you 'simplify' the whole thing to a big misunderstanding, and you will be the villain of the story, and you apologize, and that's it, the end. Problem-solving? Way to go. If its something that's meant to be kept deep inside your heart, do tell me, so that I won't wonder and wonder and wonder and HOPING there might be something to turn things over.
Kick-start everything is not easy, and sometimes impossible, brother. The way I see it, is like trying to piece and complete a shattered puzzle all over again, with a few missing pieces.
And I will never, ever, be able to understand why the phrase 'Saving special love for someone special' is being used. What point will it make in between us? Or are you claiming that I shouldn't love everyone, I shouldn't love my friend, and that I should love my better-half only?
Love all, love her the most. That's how it should be said.
And the answer for you if you thought that I'm making a big fuss outta it, because knowing you (not totally), I think you will bear this thought :
Because I care, and I thought you were the closest buddy that I could go to any other time. The one that I can always rely one when everyone else is not.
... it was a bad dream, it was like fighting for a system planned to fail.
Thanks for all you've done.
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
This is what I'm writing today...
LEARNED :
- The best way to put down one's ego is not to have it in the first place, avoid getting touchy about petty things and have a large heart of taking things lying down at times.
- Laughing at chinese-ed people is laughing at ourselves being egoistic idiots. People are brought up with different mindsets implemented to them, for it's normal if we find it unacceptable or different because people might just react the same to you. I should take a look at myself : I'm a chinese, and I can't speak proper mandarin with correct pronunciation, there are a lot of characters that I thought I knew but I actually don't. It's definitely not something to be proud of. I'm sorry for all the teasing and joke-abouts. Speaking of being open minded, we are just as closed minded in a way. Because an open-minded individual doesn't laugh over people's way of thinking. If you're it, then you are sort of open-minded, and totally unwise. If you are reading this and say the word 'WHAT?!' in a rather skeptical tone, then I'd say to you, 'EXACTLY.'
LEARNING :
- I should put the word NO / 不要 / 不能 / 不可以 to good use.
- Speak less, do more.
- Love all, serve all.
- The best way to put down one's ego is not to have it in the first place, avoid getting touchy about petty things and have a large heart of taking things lying down at times.
- Laughing at chinese-ed people is laughing at ourselves being egoistic idiots. People are brought up with different mindsets implemented to them, for it's normal if we find it unacceptable or different because people might just react the same to you. I should take a look at myself : I'm a chinese, and I can't speak proper mandarin with correct pronunciation, there are a lot of characters that I thought I knew but I actually don't. It's definitely not something to be proud of. I'm sorry for all the teasing and joke-abouts. Speaking of being open minded, we are just as closed minded in a way. Because an open-minded individual doesn't laugh over people's way of thinking. If you're it, then you are sort of open-minded, and totally unwise. If you are reading this and say the word 'WHAT?!' in a rather skeptical tone, then I'd say to you, 'EXACTLY.'
LEARNING :
- I should put the word NO / 不要 / 不能 / 不可以 to good use.
- Speak less, do more.
- Love all, serve all.
Monday, January 25, 2010
Perhaps
Perhaps, we thought we knew each other for so long, yet we are still in the phase of knowing instead of knew.
Perhaps you were biased, but your advise does make sense at some point.
Perhaps, its kinda hurts when the kind of words you write kind of turn themselves into knives.
Perhaps, you should just open up yourself without leaving me so many question marks which I shouldn't get any as a best buddy.
Perhaps, I just got to know something that I should have known years ago.
Perhaps, our words and advises can get people through their day, but not ourselves'.
I'll talk to you, not so soon, I don't know when, but not now. Perhaps you wouldn't even bother.
Be well, old friend.
Perhaps you were biased, but your advise does make sense at some point.
Perhaps, its kinda hurts when the kind of words you write kind of turn themselves into knives.
Perhaps, you should just open up yourself without leaving me so many question marks which I shouldn't get any as a best buddy.
Perhaps, I just got to know something that I should have known years ago.
Perhaps, our words and advises can get people through their day, but not ourselves'.
I'll talk to you, not so soon, I don't know when, but not now. Perhaps you wouldn't even bother.
Be well, old friend.
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